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This blog is full of shit and pointless stuffs.

I used to write crappy things here,

well I'm still doing that but what the heck.

So I've decided to get rid most of em.

Over 60 posts has been deleted.

thank you.

Some Dreams Just Won't Come True

You will come back to me.
tell me no more goodbyes.
Love me more than you did before,
and I will never tell a lie to you again.
You will fall in love with me, forever.
Just like you used to say.

We will live happily ever after,
but we can't be that perfect because no one is.
so we will have a fight once in a while,
over shitty things and crappy stuffs, 
then we will try to work it out right away.

If only I live in my own fantasy,
you would have been here with me.
If only we were meant to be,
everything will be okay.
Now we're changing, taking different ways.
And leaving some things, unsaid.

Cam Whore Again

Let's pretend everything is okay for the fucking November. 

Heck, I'm waiting for December to come 

and hoping miracles to happen.

Obviously I'm Not Okay.

 

I'm not happy. I'm not in a good mood. I feel empty inside. And obviously I'm not even close to okay. Everything is just upside down. My life is getting messier and messier. My family, my best friends, my "love life". This time, it's kinda hard, to pretend, to give a big fake smile, to laugh out loud, to everyone. I can keep on denying it and tell this and that to those people, I can try to ignore but I can't neglect this and run away. It's bugging me the whole time. I can't get this shit out from my head. This thing making me falling apart, falling fucking hard. Usually I won't give a damn but I just can't do that anymore. Not from this because I know somehow, deep in my heart, if I stay strong and give more room to 'Miss Patience'. Everything will be just fine. And I will be okay. Luckily my best friends got back to the way it should be, for now, I hope it will stay forever. Well it's good to know all of us is okay and going great back together. Oh I ♥ you guys, I really do.

I Realize

 

YEAH IT WAS ONLY JUST A DREAM

When Someone Said They Like Me,

I automatically will think ;

• this must be a joke.
• maybe they were dared.
• they are just too bored or desperate.
• WHY?
• they’re using me.
• their intentions ain't good.
• are they blind?
• pfftt yeah rightttt.

Yes.

" Yes, I am single. You're gonna have to 
be fucking amazing to change that." 

Nahh, I'm just kidding. I will never be good enough for you. I'm not pretty, smart or fascinating. Maybe I'm a bit awesome but you better find someone else. You won't understand me, no one ever could. Yes, I am weird. Just deal with it.

I Am.

I am timid and I am oversensitive. I am a lioness. I am tired. I have insecurities. I am temperamental and I have imperfections and I am emotional. I am unpredictable. I am naked. I am vulnerable. I'm asking you to take me just the way that I am. Love me or leave me. Just take it or leave it. 

- Christina Aguilera. 

Harini.

Harini hari sial.

Harini hari aku duduk dalam bilik tak buat apa apa.

Harini hari bangang.

Harini hari gila mood aku melayang.

Harini hari panas.

Harini hari aku pakai towel.

Harini hari masam. 

Harini hari aku berpeluh tak berhenti.

Harini hari kelaparan.

Harini hari perut berbunyi.

Harini hari mengada.

Harini hari aku mengadu macam gila dekat orang.

Harini hari Selasa.

Harini hari yang aku patut pergi sekolah.

Harini hari sedih. 

Harini hari concert Paramore 
yang aku tak dapat nak pergi.

Maybe

maybe it was just a misunderstanding,

maybe i was too over reacted,

maybe i care too much,

maybe it was too much too ask,
maybe i didn't think far enough,
maybe it was just me,

maybe i'm sorry.