When Someone Said They Like Me,

I automatically will think ;

• this must be a joke.
• maybe they were dared.
• they are just too bored or desperate.
• WHY?
• they’re using me.
• their intentions ain't good.
• are they blind?
• pfftt yeah rightttt.

Yes.

" Yes, I am single. You're gonna have to 
be fucking amazing to change that." 

Nahh, I'm just kidding. I will never be good enough for you. I'm not pretty, smart or fascinating. Maybe I'm a bit awesome but you better find someone else. You won't understand me, no one ever could. Yes, I am weird. Just deal with it.

I Am.

I am timid and I am oversensitive. I am a lioness. I am tired. I have insecurities. I am temperamental and I have imperfections and I am emotional. I am unpredictable. I am naked. I am vulnerable. I'm asking you to take me just the way that I am. Love me or leave me. Just take it or leave it. 

- Christina Aguilera. 

Harini.

Harini hari sial.

Harini hari aku duduk dalam bilik tak buat apa apa.

Harini hari bangang.

Harini hari gila mood aku melayang.

Harini hari panas.

Harini hari aku pakai towel.

Harini hari masam. 

Harini hari aku berpeluh tak berhenti.

Harini hari kelaparan.

Harini hari perut berbunyi.

Harini hari mengada.

Harini hari aku mengadu macam gila dekat orang.

Harini hari Selasa.

Harini hari yang aku patut pergi sekolah.

Harini hari sedih. 

Harini hari concert Paramore 
yang aku tak dapat nak pergi.

Maybe

maybe it was just a misunderstanding,

maybe i was too over reacted,

maybe i care too much,

maybe it was too much too ask,
maybe i didn't think far enough,
maybe it was just me,

maybe i'm sorry.

Cam Whore

this is what will happen when ;

• i curled my hair.
• i'm fucking bored. 
• my room is clean. 
• a laptop is in my room.
• i got nothing else to do.
• i'm almost happy.

Fear

I always have this fear , 

that one day you are going to

discover that I am not 
as great , as beautiful , 
as awesome , as kind , 

as you once thought I was .


and then , you will leave me 

like other people just did . 
I will burst in tears like I used to , 
and everything that we've been through , 
will be a waste . 


you're almost like the one for me , almost .
because you make me feel special , 
I feel different , so different , 
when I'm with you ,
but you just got me so confused .

Aku Lupa , Jadi Aku Tipu .

hii. i know the title sounds mean and dumb but what the heck, here goes my stupid story.

okay em bulan kena masuk surau tak boleh pergi kantin sebab puasa lah kan. aku pakai baju pbsm harini, jadi aku memang tak pakai tudung lah kan. aku malas nak jumpa ustazah jadi aku pergi tunggu dekat dalam toilet. aku study 25 minit dalam toilet sebab aku tak study satu haprak pun lagi, dah lah science kan. selalu nya pukul 9 10 jadi aku masuk kelas 9 05 lah kan. aku tak tahu pulak exam start pukul  9 jadi aku lambat masuk lah kan. classmate aku kata cikgu dah jadi singa tadi, jerit jerit marah marah sebab aku masuk lambat. bila aku masuk aku nampak cikgu singa aku cakap ;

aku : assalammualaikum cikgu :)
cikgu : kamu pergi mana ? asal lambat ? *muka garang suara singa*
aku : saya pergi toilet, cikgu.
cikgu : yang awak bawak kertas tu apa ?
aku : tadi saya pergi surau, saya bawak lah sekali pergi toilet.
cikgu : awak pergi surau ? awak pergi surau tak pakai tudung ke ?
aku : tak :)
cikgu : awak gastrik ke ? cirit birit ye ? *lembut lembut*
aku : tak de lah.
cikgu : habis ? 
aku : tak, sakit perut. sahur tadi saya makan sikiiit :D

cepat cepat aku taruk kertas lepas tu carik pen pemadam pensil pembaris aku, tengok tengok dah ada atas meja dah. baik pulak member aku haha lepas tu aku terus duduk start buad paper tu. aku pergi surau ? padahal tak masuk pun. aku sahur makan sikit ? padahal aku makan banyak lepas tu nasi goreng penuh satu pinggan. dah lah kantoi dengan cikgu sebab sebelum tu member aku cakap aku ada gastrik sebab tu pergi toilet lepas tu aku cakap tak haha tak pe lah. thanks shudi cover kan, thanks syazana ambik kan barang tarok atas meja. 

okay, what people will get when they tell a lie in Ramadhan ? 
they will get back about what they just lied.

tak lama tu aku dengan shudi sakit perut. wa cakap sama lu, sakit gila -.- disebabkan aku terlupa bawak 1 barang jea, aku kena tipu banyak benda. terima lah akibat nya ey sabrina ? so people out there, don't lie when it's Ramadhan. or you will regret it so fucking bad :)

That's What He Said

he said don't ever say things that I'm lacking and don't ever underestimate myself because he hates it and these things makes him sad . he said don't eat too much after break fasting and ask me to lose weight for at least 3 kg because he doesn't want me to regret it . he said he likes me , looks ain't important and he said he loves me because of the way we communicate and he said I make him smile whenever he text or talk to me.

well that's what he said .

it's funny because we have never met before .
:)

This Is All Because Of You .

I’m tired of being sad. I’m tired of crying. I’m tired of feeling empty inside. I'm tired of drama. I’m tired of feeling worthless. I’m tired of feeling stuck. I’m tired of feeling crazy. I’m tired of yelling. I’m tired of pretending. I’m tired of dreaming of a life I will never have. I’m tired of missing things. I’m tired of missing people. I’m tired of remembering. I’m tired of wishing I could start all over again. I’m tired of not being able to just let go. I’m tired of faking it. I’m tired of being different. I’m tired of being angry. I’m tired of needing help. I’m tired of always wondering when God is finally going to let me be happy. I'm tired of these games. I'm tired of hearing these stupid lies. Most of all, I’m just tired of being tired.