i hate to choose something out of everything. it's hard and it's complicated. i don't really know what i'm good at. i feel stupid when people asked me what my ambition is. the fact is, i don't really have one. i can't be what i want if i even have one.
a lawyer ?
i'm not good at talking. i have to repeat more than once to make people understand what the heck i have just said. i don't really like to talk, it's tiring. and, i suck at defending people. i can't even defend my own friend. how lame is that ?
a stewardess ?
since my second cousin works at the airlines thingy and she told me like almost everything, now i know the job is fucking hard. i must have the right height, the right weight, no acne, no scars, friendly with surroundings, have to clean such as toilet and stuffs. too bad i don't have any of them, not even one. i'm not eligible enough to have this kind of job.
a doctor ?
i had never get an A in science, only B's and C's. laugh all you want but it's damn hard for me, i suck at this too but since i attend tuition class for science, i'm loving it like hell. actually science is fun and interesting, unbelievable. i will try harder next time, i mean for PMR, i guess.
an accountant ?
i suck at counting. okay i suck at everything, damn it. i can't use it as my excuse for not choose this thang. but i'm not into that kind of job, doesn't seems fun at all.
well a dude asked me what subject will i take for next year and i said i don't know because i really don't know. then he said, tak payah belajar lah kalau macam tu. he makes me think about this thang because before this, i thought i will make up my mind after i get the PMR results so now i feel like what the heck ? how can you make up your mind for last minute ? but as soon as i know what i'm good at, i can make up my mind. but i don't know, it's about life i'm talking about here so i have to be err serious. what subject should i choose for next year ? science streams ? accounts ? arts ? or ...... ? okay i forgot the last one haha well i have no idea for now -.-
a housewife ?
so you guys thought i should be a housewife because i suck at everything right ? oh i thought about this too but clearly i want to make my own money so that i can buy what i want with no boundaries. my mom will laugh if she knows about this because i can't clean and i can't cook, seriously someone will 'mati kelaparan' and that someone is my husband so forget about being a desperate housewife. i love money and i need them $ ka-chaaanggg $ but i don't wanna be a gold digger.