i'm not the girl who loves herself. i don't have any confident to talk in English except for Shudi but what the heck ? i don't even like to talk to people, well that's just my way of living. i don't really think people likes me when i'm around them. i'm not a hotstuff or beautiful or cute, whatsoever people comment on my pictures, i don't believe a single thang they said but i'll thank them anyway just because i don't wanna make them think i'm arrogant or something. i'm not the girl who is popular and have many friends.
i don't like to show off much of my skin and obviously i don't wear fancy clothes like Gaga. i'd like to wear a dress like Hayley but i'm just too embarrassed about my legs and stuffs. i don't have the bikini body like Megan. i like to put up some make up on (f y i, eyeliner and lip gloss only) just because i think it will built up my confidence but sometimes it doesn't really works. my life ain't that great and i'm not that rich. i'd always stare my face at the mirror and keep thinking "sometimes i wish that i was a beauty", not because of other way around. i have lots of zits on my face so maybe that's why hmm.
my mind don't really trust anyone but my heart do, dammiitt. i'm not the ambitious girl, i don't even have an ambition. i hate making choices, seriously it takes time even when i have to choose my hair shampoo. i'm not waiting for any prince charming to save me from my pathetic life and happily ever after. i don't even believe in happily ever after because life is not a fairytale.
i'm not the girl most guys wanna be with. in IM i'm crazzaayy but in real life, i'm bo-ring. i'm not loving or caring like some girls so maybe that's why i hate relationships, i gotta be somebody i'm not and that's sucks. i don't know, maybe someone will love me at the end. who will be the unlucky guy ? pfftt. the only thing i "rejected" lots of guys is just because they're too good for me or other way around and that's it, no other reasons but i don't love myself so why should others love me ? i don't really get them.
loonnggg story short, i'm not worth it so you can just walk away. i don't really think this is my negative thoughts, it's just that i don't know what the hell should i put as a title for this crap. well this post is fucking pointless but look on the bright side,
i know myself.
i don't like to show off much of my skin and obviously i don't wear fancy clothes like Gaga. i'd like to wear a dress like Hayley but i'm just too embarrassed about my legs and stuffs. i don't have the bikini body like Megan. i like to put up some make up on (f y i, eyeliner and lip gloss only) just because i think it will built up my confidence but sometimes it doesn't really works. my life ain't that great and i'm not that rich. i'd always stare my face at the mirror and keep thinking "sometimes i wish that i was a beauty", not because of other way around. i have lots of zits on my face so maybe that's why hmm.
my mind don't really trust anyone but my heart do, dammiitt. i'm not the ambitious girl, i don't even have an ambition. i hate making choices, seriously it takes time even when i have to choose my hair shampoo. i'm not waiting for any prince charming to save me from my pathetic life and happily ever after. i don't even believe in happily ever after because life is not a fairytale.
i'm not the girl most guys wanna be with. in IM i'm crazzaayy but in real life, i'm bo-ring. i'm not loving or caring like some girls so maybe that's why i hate relationships, i gotta be somebody i'm not and that's sucks. i don't know, maybe someone will love me at the end. who will be the unlucky guy ? pfftt. the only thing i "rejected" lots of guys is just because they're too good for me or other way around and that's it, no other reasons but i don't love myself so why should others love me ? i don't really get them.
loonnggg story short, i'm not worth it so you can just walk away. i don't really think this is my negative thoughts, it's just that i don't know what the hell should i put as a title for this crap. well this post is fucking pointless but look on the bright side,
i know myself.